I will protect you, it said,
I will keep you warm,
I will brace for the impact of the enemies’ scorn.
I will block the poisons,
I will steady your gait,
I will absorb the toxins that overload your weight.
I will be your blanket,
I will be your warmth,
I will be the shelter for your storms.
I will carry your load,
I will ease your burden.
I will be your ceaseless soul warden.
Your feet will be firm,
Your walk will be steady,
Your body will not sway, no matter how heavy.
Your skin soft to touch,
Your hair full and smooth,
Your lips like honey, your eyes the bluest hue.
Your voice sweet with sunshine,
Your embrace eroding strife.
Your curves and your arcs filled with the essence of life.
Until one day you whispered no more.
Until the day you had to even the score.
Until the day the shell was cracked.
Until the day the heart was broke.
Until the day the gut became woke.
Until the day this frame caved in.
Until the day the your weary being rattled like tin.
I am here, you said.
I can give no more.
I have been strong too long.
Now my tune is an empty song.
I am broken, you said.
I am bleeding, instead.
The whole has fractured into pieces,
And the once flowing life now freezes.
I gave you my all, you said, now it’s my turn to grieve.
It’s my turn to cry.
It’s my turn to reject the tormenters sigh.
I am in shards, I am in limbo.
I am splintered and sharp,
I am interrupted and disrupted, intermittently sparked.
My chemistry’s shot, my defenses are blown,
My skin is dry and tacky, my lips smack of stone.
My curves and my arches are now bumbles of blah.
My eyes, once transparent, are emptily flawed.
My hair, once shiny, and vibrantly borne,
Now hangs limp and torn, razor-ended and shorn.
We need rest, it whispered.
We need to be renewed.
We need new life once again to flow freely through.
We need joy, it murmured.
We need to laugh more than cry.
We need to absorb the fragrance of a satisfied sigh.
We need to divest of the dead, the swollen, the mold.
We need to breathe in the spirit of the sun, made bold.
We need our curves and arches to achingly yearn,
For the shared embrace that warmly takes turns.
It is our time to heal, you longingly said.
For the you without me, cannot be, because your being resides in the home entitled me.
Body and soul cannot abide wholly without the other.
We’ve been through hell and highwater hand-in-hand, together.
Now it’s time to batten down the hatches,
Use our warrior energy to heal the scratches.
We are done fighting enemies that attack us from without,
We now need to battle the enemies who lurk about.
We’ve survived numerous calamities and frontal assaults,
Now we need to attack the foes that grate like asphalt.
Our roads are clogged, our channels filled,
Our springs of life are achingly stilled.
Our weapons are depleted, our ammunition zapped,
Our heart overworked, and our gut is attacked.
So, breathe, and rest, and let your worries flow,
Sit, and stare, and let yourself be slow.
Our journey isn’t over, our next steps have just begun.
But we can no longer be divided, body and soul, all or none.
For first we must just be,
for before we can be one,
we have to become fully and completely, and utterly, undone.